let's break the rules..!!!

i can't help my self anymore..i have to let it out even it sounds stupid..i don't know what im doing actually..even i know the CONSEQUENCE will turn out be the WORST..but i don't care..until when i have to keep my feeling from that person..every time i look at his picture..man!! he really make my day..I DON'T WANT TO BE THE SHY GIRL ANYMORE..

well, stan..i have to tell u the truth..i knoe it's SOUND STUPID..and it might EFFECT OUR FRIENDSHIP..but as i said early on..until when i have to keep my feeling from u..i knoe im NOT SUPPOSED TO FEEL this way..am i was the ONLY ONE to fall? i don't know..and i CAN'T READ PEOPLE'S MIND..well, to WALK WITHIN THE LINE will make NO DIFFERENT..and i knoe that i've been not to the extreme..try to look at me and really see my heart..so go and think about whatever you need to think about,go on dream about whatever you need to dream about,and come back to me when you know how you feel..

i know it sound stupid..really stupid..well,SOMETIMES LOVE MAKES US ALL SOUND STUPID..i have to admit that..well, it is a PRECIOUS GIVE FROM GOD..and im BLESS that IM CAPABLE to LOVE OTHER PERSON..all life represents a RISK and the more lovingly we live our lives,the MORE RISK WE TAKE..and the trouble is, if you DON'T ASK ANYTHING,you RISK EVEN MORE..and i'm tired of being all alone and this solitary moment makes want to come back home..remember this, COURAGE IS NOT THE LACK OF FEAR..IT IS ACTING IN SPITE OF IT..

well, i think thats all..at last,i did it..feel so relief..RELIEF..and I DON'T WANT TO BE THE SHY GIRL ANYMORE..but not in the bad way..hehe..

->mieow..i did it.. ;)

old time favourite....

i don't know why i love this song so much..been listen to it since i was in form 2 (1998)??..man!!it's been a while..but everytime when i listen to it..i feel..ishk!! don't know how to explain it...hehe..

Iris

And I´d give up forever to touch you
´Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You´re the closest to heaven that I´ll ever be
And I don´t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste in this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it´s over
I just don´t wanna miss you tonight

And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
Or the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you´re alive.

->hm..like it so much..hehe..

why it has to turn to be like this?

i got this song from oli this evening.she transfer this song thru yahoo messanger..(the script-before the worst-)..BRILLIANT KAN?!!hehe..well, this song tells a story bout two best friends, i think..and suddenly something happen between the two of them..don't want to tell more..just read this...

Before The Worst

it's been a while since the two of us talked
about a week since the day that you walked
knowing things would never be the same
with your empty heart and mine full of pain
so explain to me, how it came to this
let's take it back to the night we kissed
it was dublin city on a friday night
with vodkas and coke, i was getting this all night
we were sitting with our backs against the world
saying things that we thought but never heard
who would have thought it would end up like this?
but everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

before the worst
before we met
before our hearts decided it's time to love again
before to late
before too long
let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

there was a time that we'd stay up all night
best friends, yeah, talking till the daylight
took the joys alongside the pain
with not much to lose but so much to gain
are you hearing me? cause I don't wanna miss
that you would drift on memory bliss
it was grafton street, on a rainy night
i was down on one knee and you were mine for life
We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
but everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

if the clouds dont clear
your eyes are burning
heavens getting so near
you walk with me though
just like we used to

->hm..pitty huh!!best friends then turn to be like not knowing each other because of the thing that i think they also don't want it to happen..

calvary

i will lift my eyes to YOU
where my help comes from
LORD i find my rest in YOU
keeper of my soul

YOU gave it all for me
maker of HEAVEN
YOU paid the price
so i could be with YOU

JESUS, i remember the cross
where YOU hung upon that tree
YOU won the ultimate victory
JESUS i remember calvary

YOU reign
YOU reign over the earth..

->by the group PLANETSHAKERS from the album FREE 2008

used to...

i want to wish
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to loved.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to cared of.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to share everything with.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to think of.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person i used to stand for.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to pick up when he fall.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to loved me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to care bout me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to share everything with me.
HAPPR BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to think about me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to be by my side.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to stand for me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to pick me up when i fall..
most of all..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO THE PERSON THAT USED TO LOVED ME...

happy birthday to TAY KOK LIANG
9TH SEPTEMBER 2008..

YEAH!!!!!!!!

alrite!! our service point for this month much more higher than last month..THANK GOD!!!YEAH!! this news really make my day..well, plus next month is hari raya puasa..n of course the salary will come out early for this month..some part of me feel happy coz the salary come out early..but another part of me feel afraid that my salary will FINISH EARLY..i mean will finish before the month of october end!!! gosh!! i really need to plan my budget carefully for this month n for next month..haiya!!

im doing midnite again for this week..start on last saturday..man!!i think im addicted doing midnite.hehehe!!!!not for the bad side ya..i mean,the reason i like to do midnite so that i don't have to confront the FUSSY guest..well,i believe you read my previous post bout this FUSSY guests..man really piss me off!!even you come to work with a GOOD MOOD...smiling here and there to all the guests..and suddenly come this kind of stupid guests..man!! it really ruin your INTIRE mood..do you agree with me in this?

well, sometimes there's a guest will check in after close day..i mean check in around 1am to 3am..man!!those guest also sometimes makes me want to bang my self to the wall!!hehehe!!! im busy with all the paper work..and suddenly they come and asking for the room price..so i have to intertain them..but some of them really takes my time..asking all kind of questions..ishk!!it's okay if they take a room... i don't mind..but, after standing there for almost 10mins..gosh!!really tempt me la...

doing midnite is not as easy as it sounds..we have to compile all the sale for the day..just imagine that we have 8 outlets in the resort..plus minibar,room service,laundry,transportation and all the other miscellaneous charges and also not forgetting for the room revenue..all this things have to compile by ONE PERSON..ONE PERSON!!! man!!!and plus we have to do SAVING FOR THE SYSTEM!! see, not easy huh!!

to do saving for the entire system takes the whole nite..THE WHOLE NITE!!do saving for the outlets,back office system(reservation account and housekeeping)and front office system which is the reception..answer the massage..changing tape for the saving(4 tapes have to change in one night)..race with the time..if slow..so you have to go back around 9am or 10am instead of going back at 7am..hehehe..

after do the saving for the system..answer all the massage..then print out all the reports for the account and the housekeeping..guess which report is the longest? ACCOUNT!! they have 18 report need to be print out..gosh!!the first time im doing midnite alone..i forgot to print out a few report for them..well, you know what happen next....hahaha...now i kindda expert in doing midnite..hoho..the best part of doing midnite is,i can scold the person that doing their work in CINCAI way..you know wat i mean..you become more sensitive..hehe..

well, if you finish early as 6am..man..you are pro already..hoho..like today..i finish around 5.30am..my report all print out already..only wait for the mornig shift to take over my shift..so all i can do is watching tv in the operator room..man!!feel so relief..

well, that's what we, the midnite shift do and have to do then..haha!!