night creature (part 3)

Today is Saturday. Well, as usual many people will come today, especially students. Sometimes it really irritated me when some of them don’t know how to take care of the books that they have borrowed. These kids are really irresponsible. Some times I wonder how they parent teach them to take care of thing. This people can come as early as 11am. Everything is under control. The clock shows 1.00pm when Anne come and ask me whether I would like to join her for lunch.
‘Hey gene, would you like to join me and Robert for lunch?’
I look at my watch,
‘Hm… I don’t think that I am hungry at the moment. Why don’t you guys just go ahead? May be if my tummy started to sing a song, I’ll send you a message to buy me something to eat. Okay?’
Anne laugh
‘Alright then. Just message me later if you need anything.’
I just smile at her as she walks away.
Then leave me alone again at my desk doing my work.
After 20 minutes later, my tummy started to grumble.
‘Man… I am so hungry. I need food!!!’
I am talking to my self. Then I remember Anne. I take my mobile phone and started to write a message to her.
‘There… and after this just wait for her to bring me my burger.’
I am mumbling to my self when suddenly my book falls down on the floor.
‘Oh man!! What is this?’
I bent down to pick up the book. And when I stand up, I was shock to see there’s a man standing in front of my desk.
‘Shit!! You scared the hell of me!!’
I look at him with my big eyes.
He just stands there and looks at me with no impression.
‘Hey, I know you. Your name is Angus right? The guy that ask about Anne rice’s book the other day.’
He smiles at me when he heard that I still remember his name.
‘So what do you want this time?’
‘Hm…did the person return the book already?’
I take a beep breath,
‘Well, I am sorry to inform you that the person hasn’t returned the book yet.’
His face impression look really disappointed. Part of me feels so sad to see that face. But hey, I’m still in the mid of reading the book. I don’t care.
‘Okay then. So in that case, I have to wait again.’
I smile at him,
‘Don’t worry. I’ll call you once the person returns the book. I promise.’
He put his hands in his pocket and smiles at me
‘Alright then. And you still have my number right?’
‘Huh? Oh!! Yes!! Yes!! I still have it. It’s here, in my book.’
I pointed at my journal.
‘Okay then. I’ll wait for your call.’
And he just walks away.
‘That is so close!’
I talk to my self. After that I just continue to do my work. After half and hour later, Anne come with my burger..
‘There, burger that you want. Double cheese with extra chili sauce.’
She put it in front of me.
‘Alright then. Thanks a lot. I owe u girl.’
I take the burger and put it aside. So I continue my work for a while. After a while, I feel like want to eat at the park. So I grab my burger and my bag.
‘Anne, I feel like want to take fresh air. So I’ll be at the park. If you need anything just call me, okay?’
Without looking at me, Anne answer me,
‘Okay. Just don’t forget your time girl.’ Then she laughs.
I just smile at her. It just takes 10 minutes for me to arrive at the park. I wonder what Oli do right now. I decided to give her a call and we talk for a few minutes because she still has a lot of work to do. So I continue to eat my lunch. Suddenly I think about the thing that happens this morning. It still puzzles me. While I am still puzzles my self, suddenly
‘Hi!’
When I look on my left side, there was Angus. He was sitting beside me without me knowing it. I look at him.
‘When did you come? I didn’t realize that you are there?’
He just smiles at me. Gosh, surely he likes to smile....
I talked to my self in my mind.
‘Well, every body thought that I like to smile. It’s just not only you who thinks like that’
Whoa!!! Surely he is a mind reader.
I just continue to eat my burger until it finish. And I don’t dare to think of anything else. I just make my self relax and don’t think of anything. Just let my mind blank. Thank god I practice yoga.
‘I thought that you only have one copy of that Anne Rice book. And how come you have another copy of it?’
Suddenly I stop chewing and look down at my bag. The book was on the top of it.
Gosh!!! I forgot to put it back inside my bag. Whoa!! Plus there is a library cop on the top of it. MY GOODNESS!!!! I am speechless... Don’t know what to say.
‘I…..’
He took the book and look at me,
‘If you still not finish reading this, why don’t you just tell me that you still read it? You don’t have to lied to me girl.’
Gosh!! I am thoughtless. Seriously.
‘Okay, I am sorry if I lie to you.’
He looks at me and laugh,
‘Well, tell me when will you finish reading the book?’
‘Huh? To tell you the truth, I also don’t know when I will finish reading it’
I just put the book inside my bag and started to leave the place. Suddenly he pulls my hand to stop me to make a move.
I look at him and
‘Well sir, if you don’t let go of my hand, I will scream.’
So he just let go of my hand and quickly I leave the place.
Gosh!! What is he thinking? His action really makes me pissed off. Is he crazy or what?
When I am arrive at the library there not so many people. Good, I can continue my work. I try to find Anne, but she’s not at her desk. I wonder where she’s gone. So I just put my stuff and continue my work. After half and hour, Anne come with her big smile. I look at her with my question face.
‘What’s wrong with you? What with the big smile?’
‘Nothing…’
But the smile is still there on her face. She took the book that is on the top of my table and flips the pages.
‘I know there must be something that you hide from me girl. Just tell me what is it?’
She seems like can’t keep the secret. She put the book down and
‘Gosh, I can’t believe that this is happening to me!!’
‘What?’
‘Robert wants me to be his wife. Oh my goodness!!! I really can’t believe it. He proposes to me just now. And….’
She shows me her wedding ring. Whoa! That’s surely really big ring. I stand up and hug her.
‘That’s good for you dear. I am sure this is what you’ve been waiting for these 4 years in relationship. Now he’s your forever. Congratulation to the both of you.’
She looks at me with her teary eyes.
We talked for a while after that we continue our own work.
‘Hey gene, don’t you want to go home? It’s late already.’
It’s Anne.
When I look at my watch, it shows almost 6.00pm. It’s late already. So I pack my things and ready to make a move. So I meet her at the entrance.
‘Well, see you tomorrow girl. Enjoy your evening.’
She smile and hug me.
‘You too, dear.’
So I just make a move. I walk slowly. Surely this evening is really cold. I still keep thinking what had happen between me and Angus. He really scares me. I just couldn’t believe his action towards me. I arrived at my apartment within 15 minutes later. There it was. The flower that still bothers me, lying on the top of my dressing table. I took it and put it near to my nose. The sweet smell is still there. I wonder who put it there. Really puzzle me. I just leave it there, so I just take my shower. After taking my shower, I make my self a simple dinner. After finish taking my dinner, I decided to continue to read the book. The clock shows 11.00 pm. No wonder I feel so sleepy. So I jump in my bed, so cozy. Automatically, I just fall asleep. Suddenly I can feel someone playing with my hair. I try to open up my eyes, but cannot. Even how hard I try to open it. I can hear that person breathing. It’s so near to my ear. Slowly I can feel that he touch my neck. Once again I try to open up my eyes but still can’t. My god, please help me. I keep praying in my heart. I don’t how did I fall asleep after that.

night creature (part2)

While at the library, the visitor is not so many like yesterday. Thank god for that. This will give me enough time for me to finish my work on time. Last night incident still bother me. I try to forget and consecrates on my work. After a while, a guy come to my desk and asks my help to find a book. I know this guy. He always comes to the library and borrowed a book. If I am not mistaken, he always borrowed a book about vampire. Hm… that’s interesting. I also love to read book about them. Night creatures.
‘Hello... Can you help me to find this book? Its called Merrick and the author are by Anne rice.’
He handed over a piece of paper to me and smile. I take a deep breath and slowly let it go.
‘Well, I believe that we only have 1 copy of this book. And it has been borrowed by someone else.’
His face looks very disappointed when he heard the answer that I gave to him.
‘Hm…can I know when will this person finish reading the book?’
Okay. This sound desperate you see... He asking me when will this person finish reading the book??? Well…well…
‘I am sorry sir. I can’t tell you that. This person might come and asking to extend the time to borrowed the book.’
He looks away after heard what I said.
‘Well, nothing much you can do then. But if the person returns the book, would you mind to contact me.’
He really believes in what I told him. I smile at him…
‘Yes, I will call you once the person returns the book.’
I handed him a piece of paper and a pen for him to write his contact number and his name. Well…well… his name is Angus Emlyn. Sound unique. Scottish and welsh. Hm… that’s interesting. He passes me the paper and smile at me. He turns and walks away.
Whoosh!! That’s it. I’ve lied to him. Actually I am the one who read the book. Well, I am still reading it and I won’t let him have it before I finish it. I put the piece of paper with him name and phone number on it under the book. So I continue my work. Few hours passes…

I heard somebody calling my name. I look up and I saw James standing in front of me with his torch light. James is a security at the library. He always work night shift.
‘Well, gene. You still working? Don’t you know what time is now?’
I look at him with my blur face. I look at my watch. And it shows 8.30pm. Whoa!! Man!! I didn’t realize that the time is late already. I smile at him,
‘Okay James. I am off now. But promise me that you will take care of this place will you?’
He laugh and
‘Well miss, I will. Don’t you worry about this place. All this books will be safe with me’
I laugh when I heard he said that. He always says that every time I told him to take care of the library. You see…the library used to be broken last year. Most of the books that have been kept in the library more than 50 yrs ago have been stolen. That really pissed me off. The police manage to catch the thief but still can’t find the books that they have stolen. They said that they’ve sold it. The police lost track. I really disappointed with the police. So I pack my things and leave. My phone ring. I look at it and it was a call from Oli.
‘Man!! Where have you been? I’ve been try to call you since 7pm.’
‘I just come out from the library. I didn’t realize that the time is 8pm just now, until James come up.’
We chat for a while. And I hung up the phone. The night was so beautiful. The moon was so bright. Not so many people walking that night. I feel so hungry. So I decided to drop by at McDonalds’ to buy some food. After a while I hid back to my apartment. After finish taking my shower I sit in front of the TV while having my dinner. The clock shows the time is almost 12 midnite. No wonder I felt so sleepy.
Feel so nice once I laid my body on my bed. Before that, I’ve set my alarm clock. Automatically, I just fall asleep.

After a while, I felt that some one touch my fore head. I try to open my eyes but I can’t. Even that I try really hard to open it but still. I can feel that his finger run thru my face and touch my lips. I still can feel the finger touch my face and after a few second I fall in a deep sleep.
‘RINGGGGGGG!!!!!!’ my alarm clock ring. Gosh!! I felt my sleep too short that night. I lay for a while. I feel so strange that morning. I wonder why. I look around my room and suddenly my eyes stop at my dressing table. There’s a flower on the top of it. Quickly I get up from my bed and walk slowly to my dressing table. I took it and smell the flower. It was white lily. Nice smell. Plus it’s my favorite flower. I wonder who put it there. And plus, how did he come inside without I notice it. It really puzzles me. I check my things in case that they might stole something from me. But hey, what kind of thief that leave a flower after they broke into some one houses. Really funny huh? But then, nothing is missing. I thank god for that. But this flower thing still bothering me. I just leave it there on my dressing table. So I get ready to work.

night creature (part 1)

I decided to go to sleep early tonight. I feel so tired and sleepy. I don’t know what I did until I can’t stand it anymore. So tonight I have to skip to watch my favorite TV show that will be start at 11.00 pm every Friday night. I was in deep sleep until suddenly I felt something rubbing and sniffing my wrist. So I open my eyes slowly and I was so surprise to see there is one tall dark figure standing beside me. Watching me while I am asleep. When I open my eyes wide, then poof….he’s not there anymore. All I can see my curtain blowing in the wind. So I quickly run to my bedroom balcony and see if he still there. To my surprise, he’s not there anymore. So I was wondering, who the hell is he or THAT? I was standing there for almost 10 minute try to figure out how he clied up to my room. And I am so sure that I already close my sliding door. And still I can’t figure out that how he can come up here. I was staying in 12th floor apartment. While I was standing at the balcony, I can see the moon was shining so bright that night. Full moon….it’s so beautiful. I can feel the cold wind blow over my body. It makes me so cold. So I go into my room and continue my sleep.

My alarm clock started to ring at 8.00 am. Wah!! I felt so lazy to wake up that morning. Oh!! I have to go to work. Do I have to go to work?? Oh yes, gene.. I am talking to my self while I am walking to my bathroom. I work as a librarian at the library, 3 blocks from my apartment. I love my job. It’s because I loves to read book. That morning is like ordinary morning. I stop by at the Starbucks to buy drink and some cake so that I can have breakfast with my friend, Oliv, at the park. We always do that. We take turn to buy drinks and some cakes and we will have a breakfast together at the park. She’s already there waiting for me. I can see her smile when she sees me walking towards her.
‘What take you so long, gene?’
‘I am late?? I don’t think so.’
I look at my watch and it shows 9.05am.
‘Oh come on!! I am only late for 5 minutes. You are the one that come early. I am the one that always waiting for you. Remember?’
She looks at me and blushing. We laugh together. So we had our breakfast. While we eat our breakfast, suddenly I remember the thing that happens to me last night.
‘Babe, guess what happen to me last night?’
She looks at me with her puzzle face.
‘I don’t know. Why don’t you tell me then?’
So I tell her everything from the beginning until the end.
She looks at me with her stunned face.
‘You got to be kidding me gene. No way would this thing happen’
I look at her.
‘So, you try to tell me that I make up this story?’
She look away and drink her coffee and
‘Well, I think you must be dreaming.’
‘Huh! Yeah right!’
So we talked about something else. Its 15 minutes to 10.00 am.
‘Well, Oli. I think we have to make a move.’
‘Okay. See you next Saturday then.’
I smile at her,
‘And don’t forget that next Saturday is you turn to buy us a breakfast.’
‘Don’t worry. I will not forget’
So we walk in a different direction.

coming soon!!!!!

i am writing a story about vampire. and i can't wait to finish it. just stay tune....

here we go again-paramore-

And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not.

And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering
Just who would I have been
To be the one attached
At all times to your hip?
Forget the things we swore we meant.

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Oh (No, I'm not)

I'll write you to,to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
I'm not, I'm not.

And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back...
So we just take it back...(No, I'm not)
So we just take it back...(I'm not)
So we just take it back... [8x]

>don't know how to let you know. luckly i found this song and the lyric really speaks to me.and this is what i feel at the moment.i dedicated this song to you..if you have time, just try to dwnld this song and listen to it..<

face down - red jumpsuit apparatus-

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down,
a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

truly me...

my blogger mate asked me to tag my self at her blog page...well, this is what i am...truly me..

1.CAN'T leave without chocolate(anything about chocolate,just give it to me)

2.LURVE laksa sooooo much!!! (esp when my mum cook it)

3.LURVE to listen to rock, alternative and punk rock genre
(wah!!! feel soooo good after listen to those songs)

4.EASY to hate people if she really irritated me(bad2 gurl ha gene!!)

5.LURVE vampire thing (i'm wif the vampire,of course ho moi!)

6.LOVE to eat but my body size still the same(small, tiny winy heh! ;p)

7.CAN sleep the whole day if there is no interruption..

8.CAN stay in my room for the whole day (hehe!!)

9.LOVE to buy a story book but not reading it and buy another one and not reading it and buy another one and not reading it(bad habbit!!)

10.DON'T bother what people say about me..just let them talk and talk and talk until they DIEEEE!!(I DUN GIVE A S#*%!!)

that's it..hehehe!!! ;p

if lives like a fairy tale....

If lives like a fairy tale, how wonderful it was... Like a Cinderella story. That what every girl wish how their love life to be. Meet their guy, prince charming. Get involve in love relationship. Get green light from both side of the family. Get married and live happily ever after. How easy it was. You fall for this person. And you confess to him that you already fall for him. You give him time to think. And poof.. the two of you become couple and now you are in new life which is you already involve in love relationship… well, in real life, it won’t be that really easy.

If we feel that we already found the right one, it can turn out to be the other way. I mean he’s not the right one for you. Sometimes it can be from the guy himself or from the family or it can be from the surrounding. Long distance relationship? Hm... Well, it depends on both sides actually. Whether they can manage it or not. Sincere, that what’s really important when come to long distance relationship. You have to trust each other. Some people can survive. But some people, they will never survive in that kind of relationship… if you guys know what I mean, just kept it for your self.

Even that the two of you were in the same place, also sometimes it won’t survive. Even a relationship that has been built for more than 3 years can crash down like world trade centre the other day. Man, why this thing call love is really difficult? Do you guys agree with me? Hm... I just can’t say anything.

The worst part if; you really fall for this guy. But he doesn’t know how you feel. And you were trying you very best to show how you feel. Give him a clue. What ever clue that you can think off. But still he doesn’t get what you mean... Man… and I believe that really makes you pissed off. And in your mind you’ll say that ‘why you still didn’t get it!!!! Please!!!! Be alert!!!’ And this, when it come to make a confession… you have to gather all you strengths to let him know how your feel. When he already know it…gosh!! You feel so relief… feel like to scream out to the world and telling the whole world that you’ve done it… and this part is the worst part and the tough part …REJECTION. That’s what I mean. Okay, if he accepts you, yea!!! You’ve done it. But if he rejected you…Man... That’s really hurt… but hey!! As long as he know how you feel right? Just take it easy... This is not the end of the world. And he is not the last man on earth then… am I right? Hehe**winking… and both of you still can be friends.. And who knows that one day he can open his tiny winy little heart for you..yadeh!! hehe**winking

And also not forgetting, fairy tale always come with fairy and cupid… if those thing really exist…man, the internet will not full with all kind of match making website… we just summoned those two… make a wish and poof…that’s it…he is yours….wah!!! Best kan??? Hahaha!!!!

That’s what I call, if lives like a fairy tale, wouldn’t it be great? Yeah right!!

when it rains

And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Take your time.
Take my time.

Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances,
we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.

Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

You can take your time, take my time.


>download this song from a friend of mine...LOVE it soooo much...been listening to it for a few times..well, not a few times..but i think a 100 TIMES already**winking..just can't take my ears from listening to this song..well, if you guys have a time to download this song, the name of the group is PARAMORE and the song called WHEN IT RAINS..i know this their old song from their old album..but hey..i still enjoy listenig to it..hope you guys enjoy the song as much as i do..muah!!!<

A police officer pulls a bloke over for speeding

Officer: Can I see your driver's license?
Driver: I don't have one. I had it suspended for speeding.
Officer: Can I see the registration for this vehicle?
Driver: It's not my car mate. I just stole it.
Officer: This car is stolen?
Driver: That's right. But actually I think I saw the registration in the glove box when I put my gun in there.
Officer: Are you telling me there is a gun in the glove box?
Driver: Yes mate. That's where I put it after I shot and killed the woman who owns this car, she is in the boot.
Officer: There's a BODY in the BOOT.....
Driver: There certainly is mate.

Hearing this, the officer immediately called for back up. The suspect car was quickly surrounded by police, and the Chief Inspector approached the driver to handle the situation.

Inspector: Sir, can I see your license?
Driver: Sure. Here it is.It was valid.
Inspector: Who's car is this?
Driver: It's mine Inspector. Here's the registration papers.
Inspector: Could you slowly open your glove box so I can see if there's a gun in it?
Driver: GUN!! well yes sir, but there's no gun in it.Sure enough, there was nothing in the glove box.
Inspector: Would you mind opening your boot? I was told you said there's a body in it.
Driver: BODY!!!, For gods sake how ridiculous.

Boot is opened; no body.

Inspector: I don't understand it. The officer who stopped you said you told him you didn't have a license, stole the car, had a gun in the glove box, and that there was a dead body in the boot.
Driver: Yeah, I bet that lying bastard told you I was speeding too.


>This is what I come across when I surf the fairiesvampire webside the other day. Really caught my attention**wink. My fav webside..( you noe me rite moi..im wif the vampires, of course**hehe>

Mr Boniface...

I thought when I come back from my long holiday there will be lots of funny story to be share with all my friends. But its turn out to be the other way. My beloved friend and my duty manager said that he want to resign. It’s because he has to go back to his home town, Limbang. I was so sad when I heard the news. His is the coolest duty manager that we ever have. Sporting and understanding. Not like the other two duty manager that we have at the moment. Well, better don’t talk about them.
Mr. Boniface. That’s was his name. Just like his body size, chubby.
He’s the one that really understand our situation when it’s comes to our personal matters. He really knows how to tackle us, the naughty ones (Iskandar, Rahman, Amy and me, of course). And to my surprise, he shares the same interest with me. Well, it’s better for me not to mention what it is. But for sure that is not the bad thing**wink. (And to bon, I am sure you still remember what is it right? FOREST(the key word)) When comes to doing midnights shift together, he like to sit in our front office manager’s office so that he can used the PC to surf the internet(don’t worry bon, you are not the only one that LOVE to used the PC during midnite). And he will listen to hotfm online. And he will check his friendster. And after a while, he will fall asleep. Yes, SLEEP!!!! And sometimes he snores until I can hear his snore while I am doing my work outside the office. Well, I think you guys can imagine how loud it was. And when he’s awake, he will do his work in rush... Yes IN RUSH!! (But not that rush ho bon…) with his red eyes after asleep for awhile he will complete his work in steady way**hehe!! For me, I understand why he tense to fall asleep while doing midnite shifts. Because he has a daughter. If I am not mistaken her age is around 2 or 3 years old. Well, you know kids right? And how they play…

Still have a lot of things that I wish I can write down about him. The friendship that we built for 3 years I am here. Really makes me sad when I heard he want’s to leave. He teaches me a lot. About the hotel system, especially for the midnite stuff. When it comes to midnite stuff, you have to know how to operate the system that we dayshift didn’t know. To become the night auditor, you have to know everything. Especially the system. Well bon, you still owe me a lot. Alot bon...

Really wish that you still here, Bon. And I dedicate this writing to you, my dear friend.

ALL MIX UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don’t know how to let it out. I don’t know what I am thinking right now. All mix up. All mix up. Part of me says just let it go. But another part of me says just go on. And I am standing between the lines. Don’t know which one to follow. All mix up. And for sure I really hate this feeling. Sometimes I think why we human have this all kind of feeling? Why we have to have this feeling? The feeling that we our self don’t know how to control it. Yes, control.

The main point is CONTROL. It’s up to our self how we control our feelings. Feelings toward the thing that we like to see. Feelings towards the person that we really like. Yeah, some of you might say that it’s easy to control it. But if come to certain stages, trust me... It’s really hard to control it. Even you your self don’t know what to do. Like me right now. Still don’t know what to do and still can’t figure out what is happening actually. All mix up. I’m trapped in the situation that I my self don’t know how to handle. WHAT A SHIT!!!! Why it has to be like this??? Why???

But for sure, I cannot complain. All this feeling are created by our GOD…

A PIECE OF MY MIND

Holiday time is almost over. Well, this time I just stay at home. No where to go. Just helping around to do some house work. But I have to admit that if just stay at home, we tense to get boring. Plus almost everyday it’s raining over here. Eerrrggghhhhhh!!!!!!! Boring!!! Can’t wait to finish this holiday and come back to work... Work!! Work!! Work!!! N work!!!

For this pass few month I realize that I’ve become a workaholic… am I? **wondering... May be it’s because I got nothing to do when I am in my room. Go else where? Well, I m telling you guys that my work place is quite far from Kuching city. It takes 45 minutes drive. Long journey huh? Friends? Yep.. Do have. But I also have to give them space for them to spend their times with their LOVE one.. Yeah.. For us that single, we have to adapt the SINGLE LIFE... Don’t you think so? And have to find other thing to do... Well, if still don’t have anything to do…… Let just go to SLEEPPPP!!!!!!! :p

Just to make this post short, sometimes I always asking my self, WHAT THIS LIFE WANTS ACTUALLY…….

at the touch of love.....

AT THE TOUCH OF LOVE, EVERYONE BECOME A POET… Hmm…don’t
you think so? Everyone around me sounds like PLATO.. Well, you know that they can come out with a romantic poem even I know some of them is not really good in writing a poem. Even me also not good in it..hehe**wink.. But the verse really speaks for it self.
Well, let’s take it from my scenario. I have to admit that I am a little bit tough (not in physical) I can really be a cold hearted person (not to old people).But if that old people really makes me pissed off (everything can come out from my mouth) ISHK!! Really bad kan? But when come to young people, huh!! Trust me.. If I don’t like that particular person, when she/he walks pass me, I will pretend that I don’t see her/him AT ALL. Even I don’t want to be in the same place with her/him. Really irritated me. I don’t know, every time I see this lady/guy, my tiny heart will says ‘GO TO H#&& LA YOU!!!’ Even I can imagine that I smack her/his face with my bare hand!!! WOW, trust me, it feel really good when I can do that in reality.. WHY YOU CAN BE SO HEARTLESS HA, GENE?? I don’t know? Sometimes me myself also can’t figure out why I can be so heartless.. hmm..
But if JIWANG SYNDROM suddenly come…haa.. that time you can see me act so differently.. I will write a poem (jiwang?? AYO!!!) Listen to my love songs collection (huh!!). OR EVEN WORST, I will blow a kiss to my colleague (NOT TO LEWIS, HA MIEOW!!) oh my gosh!! As I said before, the verse really speaks for it self.. heh!!**wink..

without you...

try to download a song from a group called HINDER..song title LIPS OF AN ANGEL..instead of download that song, i found other song..from the same group..WITHOUT YOU.. this is wat i feel lately..so relief and light after letting go of something that really burden me

Hinder – Without You

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that i'm ready to let you leave

without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I’m fine
Without you

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken its toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I’m fine
Without you

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken its toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I’m fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather...

->learn how to let go of something that hold you down..you will see you self so different...trust me..it's works...;p

what a S#&%!!!!!

can't believe what i saw this afternoon..felt want to poke my heart with the fork at the staff canteen..it's our service points...really DISAPPOINTED!!! i thought that this month service points is around 100 and above..but...huhuhu!!!huaaa!!! really piss me off!! my goodness!!! the promotion that we have during fasting month seems like USELESS!! ishk!! NO USED!! NO USED!! NO USED!!
hm..okay..stop..take a deep breathhh..this month i can see in our reservation forecast that we have a lot of group that will be c/in.. but most of the group is under goverment..hm..i think you guys know what will happen when group under goverment c/in?? DEMAND FOR THE CHEP ROOM RATES!!!!!!!! FU#&!!! and also asking for this thing..that thing..DAMNED!!! but have to follow because they will paid us ba..huhu!!
STOP COMPLAINING GENE...

LOVE IS IN THE AIR!!!!

love is in the air...what is the reason i said that? it's because every one is talking bout this one thing..LOVE..work place, my friend love to tell me a story bout her and the husband(not that thing la**wink)...the other friend also the same..love to tell me about her and the boyfriend..and my blogger mates..they also talked bout this LOVE thing..well, we can't excape from this..LOVE thing..
love is not only from one person to another person..love also can be, love your work? for me, i love my job as a receptionist... i love to come to work as early as i can..do my job in a proper way and wif all my heart..and if i get compliment from my bos or from the account side(the most important) i will be HAPPY all the time and smile owest(ada org pdh ku sik betul coz senyum kedirik!!!)..;p compliment from the guest?sometimes it's hard to pleased them..even how hard you try..ishk!! but it's okay..as long as you serve them wif a smile and wif ur sincere heart..and i believe they can see it..hehe..
see, not only love from one person to another person..we also can love our job,our home and the things around us...
that's what i call...LOVE IS IN THE AIR!!!!
*this is not jiwang syndrom eh!! **wink

guest!!!!!

working in a hotel line is hard..i believe some of you know what im talking about.. GUEST THAT FUSSY AND LIAR!!!
im at kuching right now.surf internet at coffee bean.my fav spot when i feel boring in my room even i have internet excess in my room..hehe!! i just receive a call from my friend that is working in a morning shift..he inform me that there is a guest that i checking in yesterday told him that i didn't inform them to pass the offical reciept back to the reception upon c/out..WHAT A SHIT!!! the reason we need that piece of paper back because the guest already give the advance deposit upon c/in..and they have to give that piece of paper back to us to claim the money back.. see, we have to explain ONE MORE TIME to them..as if we didn't inform them on the first place..when we tell them upon c/in, they seems like listen carefully..but when time to c/out..they tell us that we didn't inform them..BULLSHIT!!
this kind of guest know how to twist the thing that we told them..CLEVER!!(they think) but in our eyes they are STUPID!!..all they can think upon c/in is to go into the room and make a mess and jump into the pool and distroy the resort's facilites..don't u think so?
i am not complaining here..this is just my point of view..and not only me..i don't want to complain..most of the times i THANK the guest that c/in..plus they paid for the room and the services..so all we can do is to serve them with all our heart(ceh!!) but, if we come across this kind of guest, we tense to piss off!! man, we have to be patience..ALOT..mun sik pun, to calm our self down we tense to curse them(mun kedak tok memang CONFIRM masuk neraka coz banyak gilak CURSE org!! hehehe!! :P )
but i love my job as a receptionist...teach me alot..how to be patience..even there's alot of things happen around me..to climb a step of success is really hard..you have to sacrifice alot of things..your time with your family(most important) ,for your self,and with your love one(ada kah aku gereks??..hm..) ishk!! I LOVE MY JOB...

life!!!

On the first day, God created the dog and said:'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.' The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?' So God agreed.On the second day, God created the monkey and said:'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.' The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'And God agreed. On the third day, God created the cow and said:'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.' The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?' And God agreed again.On the fourth day, God created man and said:'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.' But man said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, give me the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?''Okay, sure' said God, 'You asked for it.' So that is why for our first twenty years, we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years, we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years, we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.Life has now been explained to you.

Making a baby. This is hilarious!There is not one dirty word in it, and it is funny. The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, 'Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon.' Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. 'Good morning, Ma'am', he said, 'I've come to...' 'Oh, no need to explain,' Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, 'I've been expecting you.' 'Have you really?' said the photographer. 'Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?' 'Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat'. After a moment she asked, blushing, 'Well, where do we start?' 'Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there.' 'Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it didn't work out for Harry and me!' 'Well, Ma'am, none of us can guarantee a good one every time. But if we try several different positions and I shoot from six or seven angles, I'm sure you'll be pleased with the results.' 'My, that's a lot!', gasped Mrs. Smith. 'Ma'am, in my line of work a man has to take his time. I'd love to be In and out in five minutes, but I'm sure you'd be disappointed with that.' 'Don't I know it,' said Mrs. Smith quietly. The photographer opened his briefcase and pulled out a portfolio of his baby pictures. 'This was done on the top of a bus,' he said. 'Oh, my word!' Mrs. Smith exclaimed, grasping at her throat. 'And these twins turned out exceptionally well - when you consider their mother was so difficult to work with.''She was difficult?' asked Mrs. Smith. 'Yes, I'm afraid so. I finally had to take her to the park to get the job done right. People were crowding around four and five deep to get a good look' 'Four and five deep?' said Mrs. Smith, her eyes wide with amazement. 'Yes', the photographer replied. 'And for more than three hours, too. The mother was constantly squealing and yelling - I could hardly concentrate, and when darkness approached I had to rush my shots. Finally, when the squirrels began nibbling on my equipment, I just had to pack it all in.' Mrs. Smith leaned forward. 'Do you mean they actually chewed on your, uh...equipment?' 'It's true, Ma'am, yes.. Well, if you're ready, I'll set-up my tripod and we can get to work right away.' 'Tripod?' 'Oh yes, Ma'am. I need to use a tripod to rest my Canon on. It's much too big to be held in the hand very long.' Mrs. Smith fainted

what a life...

Its been a while i didn't post anything..what a life!! busy with work? i don't think so..well,for pass few days there a lot of thing happen around me..the thing that i will never forget while im still working here..its about my ex-roomate..poor her..she come here all the way from home just to work..fall in love with the staff that also work at the same place.okay, at first good..the relationship is like any other couple..but after a while,there's a story regarding about this two..the worse part is the guy started to hit her..every time they started to fight, the whole quarters can hear their scream..espcially the girl..crying in pain..can't do anything..only listen to the cry and the scream..talk to the girl to leave the stupid guy? believe me..thousand times already..so its depend to the girl to decided to leave the stupid guy..and on the 24th sept..i was working in the afternoon shift..while i am waiting for the time to get ready to work..suddenly i heard a scream..when i listen carefully, it was her voice..my gosh!! i feel so stupid coz can't do anything..later that day, around 4 pm..she call me to my work place..her voice sound like want to cry..i asked her is evrything okay? she said yes and why..i told her that i heard her scream that afternoon..she sounds surprise..and she tell me evrything..i fell so angry when i heard it..i told her to leave the guy..no used for her to be with that guy that didn't appreciate her at all..and she told me that she gonna leave him..on that very night..she don't care anymore..so, to cut the story short, she leave that STUPID RONNEY..

i believe that she's happy now..even the cut is still there, but it will heal..that what i call the person that didn't appreciate the love that God gave to him..he should appreciate her.he's lucky because she's with him 24/7..but for the person that have to be far from each other? hard huh?
life!! life!! what a life?

a place to rest...

Do you know WHERE YOR HEART IS?
Do you think YOU CAN FIND IT?
Or DID YOU TRADE IT FOR SOMETHING..
Somewhere better JUST TO HAVE IT?
Do you know WHERE YOUR LOVE IS?
Do you think THAT YOU LOST IT?
You FELT IT SO STRONG, but
NOTHING'S TURNED OUT HOW YOU WANTED

Well, BLESS MY SOUL
YOU'RE LONLEY SOUL
Cause YOU WONT LET GO
OF ANYTHING YOU HOLD

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you KNOW WHAT YOUR FATE IS?
And ARE YOU TRYING TO SHAKE IT?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Do you think YOU CAN FIND IT?
BETTER THAN YOU HAD IT

WHENEVER THE ENDS IS
Do you think YOU CAN SEE IT?
Well, UNTIL YOU GET THERE
GO ON, GO AHEAD AND SCREAM IT
JUST SAY IT..


->just let go of anything you hold..open up again..be the new person..

good strategy.....

well, as u all know that this month is a fasting month..the resort should be quiet for the whole month..but wow!!the resort is full almost every week..this week is the 3rd week of the fasting month..and well..the occupancy is good..as long as the occupancy is not below 20%..good right?hehe..we have 2 promotion..merdeka promotion ended today(15th sept) and mad sale promo(room charge is rm100.00 per room per night)only valid in the month of september..every one call the reservation to booked for the mad sale..who don't want to stay in 4 star resort with rate rm 100.00 per room per night?some of them booked 4 rooms for 1 night..man!!

the person that come out with this kind of strategy really brilliant..the reason i said this is because last year during fasting month the resort really quite..the occpancy is below 20% if im not mistaken..this kind of promotion is good also for our SERVICE POINTS!! HEHEHE..i just can't wait to know how much is our service points for next month..

well, i hope this person will come out with more brilliant ideas..and for our side(receptionist)we'll do our best to serve the guest..and for all the FUSSY guest..i wish i can throw them all into the sea..hehe..(wish i can do that..)

let's break the rules..!!!

i can't help my self anymore..i have to let it out even it sounds stupid..i don't know what im doing actually..even i know the CONSEQUENCE will turn out be the WORST..but i don't care..until when i have to keep my feeling from that person..every time i look at his picture..man!! he really make my day..I DON'T WANT TO BE THE SHY GIRL ANYMORE..

well, stan..i have to tell u the truth..i knoe it's SOUND STUPID..and it might EFFECT OUR FRIENDSHIP..but as i said early on..until when i have to keep my feeling from u..i knoe im NOT SUPPOSED TO FEEL this way..am i was the ONLY ONE to fall? i don't know..and i CAN'T READ PEOPLE'S MIND..well, to WALK WITHIN THE LINE will make NO DIFFERENT..and i knoe that i've been not to the extreme..try to look at me and really see my heart..so go and think about whatever you need to think about,go on dream about whatever you need to dream about,and come back to me when you know how you feel..

i know it sound stupid..really stupid..well,SOMETIMES LOVE MAKES US ALL SOUND STUPID..i have to admit that..well, it is a PRECIOUS GIVE FROM GOD..and im BLESS that IM CAPABLE to LOVE OTHER PERSON..all life represents a RISK and the more lovingly we live our lives,the MORE RISK WE TAKE..and the trouble is, if you DON'T ASK ANYTHING,you RISK EVEN MORE..and i'm tired of being all alone and this solitary moment makes want to come back home..remember this, COURAGE IS NOT THE LACK OF FEAR..IT IS ACTING IN SPITE OF IT..

well, i think thats all..at last,i did it..feel so relief..RELIEF..and I DON'T WANT TO BE THE SHY GIRL ANYMORE..but not in the bad way..hehe..

->mieow..i did it.. ;)

old time favourite....

i don't know why i love this song so much..been listen to it since i was in form 2 (1998)??..man!!it's been a while..but everytime when i listen to it..i feel..ishk!! don't know how to explain it...hehe..

Iris

And I´d give up forever to touch you
´Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You´re the closest to heaven that I´ll ever be
And I don´t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste in this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it´s over
I just don´t wanna miss you tonight

And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
Or the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you´re alive.

->hm..like it so much..hehe..

why it has to turn to be like this?

i got this song from oli this evening.she transfer this song thru yahoo messanger..(the script-before the worst-)..BRILLIANT KAN?!!hehe..well, this song tells a story bout two best friends, i think..and suddenly something happen between the two of them..don't want to tell more..just read this...

Before The Worst

it's been a while since the two of us talked
about a week since the day that you walked
knowing things would never be the same
with your empty heart and mine full of pain
so explain to me, how it came to this
let's take it back to the night we kissed
it was dublin city on a friday night
with vodkas and coke, i was getting this all night
we were sitting with our backs against the world
saying things that we thought but never heard
who would have thought it would end up like this?
but everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

before the worst
before we met
before our hearts decided it's time to love again
before to late
before too long
let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

there was a time that we'd stay up all night
best friends, yeah, talking till the daylight
took the joys alongside the pain
with not much to lose but so much to gain
are you hearing me? cause I don't wanna miss
that you would drift on memory bliss
it was grafton street, on a rainy night
i was down on one knee and you were mine for life
We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
but everything we talked about is gone
and the only chance we have of moving on
was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

if the clouds dont clear
your eyes are burning
heavens getting so near
you walk with me though
just like we used to

->hm..pitty huh!!best friends then turn to be like not knowing each other because of the thing that i think they also don't want it to happen..

calvary

i will lift my eyes to YOU
where my help comes from
LORD i find my rest in YOU
keeper of my soul

YOU gave it all for me
maker of HEAVEN
YOU paid the price
so i could be with YOU

JESUS, i remember the cross
where YOU hung upon that tree
YOU won the ultimate victory
JESUS i remember calvary

YOU reign
YOU reign over the earth..

->by the group PLANETSHAKERS from the album FREE 2008

used to...

i want to wish
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to loved.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to cared of.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to share everything with.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to think of.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person i used to stand for.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that i used to pick up when he fall.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to loved me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to care bout me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to share everything with me.
HAPPR BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to think about me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to be by my side.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to stand for me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to the person that used to pick me up when i fall..
most of all..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO THE PERSON THAT USED TO LOVED ME...

happy birthday to TAY KOK LIANG
9TH SEPTEMBER 2008..

YEAH!!!!!!!!

alrite!! our service point for this month much more higher than last month..THANK GOD!!!YEAH!! this news really make my day..well, plus next month is hari raya puasa..n of course the salary will come out early for this month..some part of me feel happy coz the salary come out early..but another part of me feel afraid that my salary will FINISH EARLY..i mean will finish before the month of october end!!! gosh!! i really need to plan my budget carefully for this month n for next month..haiya!!

im doing midnite again for this week..start on last saturday..man!!i think im addicted doing midnite.hehehe!!!!not for the bad side ya..i mean,the reason i like to do midnite so that i don't have to confront the FUSSY guest..well,i believe you read my previous post bout this FUSSY guests..man really piss me off!!even you come to work with a GOOD MOOD...smiling here and there to all the guests..and suddenly come this kind of stupid guests..man!! it really ruin your INTIRE mood..do you agree with me in this?

well, sometimes there's a guest will check in after close day..i mean check in around 1am to 3am..man!!those guest also sometimes makes me want to bang my self to the wall!!hehehe!!! im busy with all the paper work..and suddenly they come and asking for the room price..so i have to intertain them..but some of them really takes my time..asking all kind of questions..ishk!!it's okay if they take a room... i don't mind..but, after standing there for almost 10mins..gosh!!really tempt me la...

doing midnite is not as easy as it sounds..we have to compile all the sale for the day..just imagine that we have 8 outlets in the resort..plus minibar,room service,laundry,transportation and all the other miscellaneous charges and also not forgetting for the room revenue..all this things have to compile by ONE PERSON..ONE PERSON!!! man!!!and plus we have to do SAVING FOR THE SYSTEM!! see, not easy huh!!

to do saving for the entire system takes the whole nite..THE WHOLE NITE!!do saving for the outlets,back office system(reservation account and housekeeping)and front office system which is the reception..answer the massage..changing tape for the saving(4 tapes have to change in one night)..race with the time..if slow..so you have to go back around 9am or 10am instead of going back at 7am..hehehe..

after do the saving for the system..answer all the massage..then print out all the reports for the account and the housekeeping..guess which report is the longest? ACCOUNT!! they have 18 report need to be print out..gosh!!the first time im doing midnite alone..i forgot to print out a few report for them..well, you know what happen next....hahaha...now i kindda expert in doing midnite..hoho..the best part of doing midnite is,i can scold the person that doing their work in CINCAI way..you know wat i mean..you become more sensitive..hehe..

well, if you finish early as 6am..man..you are pro already..hoho..like today..i finish around 5.30am..my report all print out already..only wait for the mornig shift to take over my shift..so all i can do is watching tv in the operator room..man!!feel so relief..

well, that's what we, the midnite shift do and have to do then..haha!!

boringggg......!!!!!!!

ahh!!!! why today i feel so damned boring..
everybody have their own plan..
me?nothing to do..
just stay in my room..
alone...
yes, alone..
my roomate?
don't know where she goes..
missing since..
i don't know when..
hehehe...(grin..)
what a life in damai..
this is what we always do if we got nothing
to do..
SLEEPING!!!!
yes, that is the only thing that we always do..
counting the sheep..
gosh!!
WHAT A LIFE???

so much 4 my happy ending......

let's talk this over,
it's not like we're dead,
was it something i did?
was it something you said?
don't leave me hanging
in a city so dead,
held up so high,
on such a breakable thread.
you were all the things i thought i knew..
and i thought we could be,
you were everthing that i wanted,

we were meant to be,
supposed to be,
BUT WE LOST IT,
and ALL OF THE MEMORIES,
so SO CLOSE TO ME,
JUST FADE AWAY,
so much for my happy ending...
you've got your dumb friends,
i know what they say,
they tell you i'm difficult,
but so are they,
but they don't know me,
do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me,
all the shit that you do...

it's nice to know THAT YOU WERE THERE,
THANKS FOR ACTING LIKE YOU CARED,
and making me feel like i WAS THE ONLY ONE,
it's nice to know we had it all,
THANKS FOR WATCHING AS I FALL,
and letting me know WE WERE DONE...

->when we feel that this one particular person is suitable for us, why he has to go...only God knows?the answer that i've always got...

.........

COURAGE IS NOT THE LACK OF FEAR...

IT IS ACTING IN SPITE OF IT...

illusions?

i THOUGHT i saw you LOOK at me,
i THOUGHT i saw you STARE,
do you know i think you're cute?
i like the look you bare..
are my eyes DECEIVING me,
when i see you STANDING THERE?
are you PLAYING TRICKS on me,
just to PROVE i CARE?

are you an illusion?
it is only IN MY MIND?
do you look at me,
as i do you,
to see if YOU CAN FIND,
a LITTLE BIT OF INTREST,
a STOLEN GLANCE your way?
will you COME and TALK to me,
or WATCH me day to day?

you may have taken notice,
that i'm not very shy.
i like to tell my girlfriend
when i like a certain guy.
i DO NOT MEAN TO SCARE YOU,
but i've THOUGHT OF YOU A LOT..
and now i simply want to know......


-> i don't know why i like this poem so much..really remind me of someone... ;)

let go.....

man!! don't know what to write..
my heart told me that i should write something..
but still can't figure out what to write...
something in me want to come out..
but don't know how to let it go..
please, please, please, help me...
am i sounds like im desprate??
NOO....!!!!!
something in me really want to come out...
but still can't figure out what is it?
n still don't know how to let it go....
hanging......

came to the rescue.....

falling on my knees in worship,
giving all i am to seek your face,
lord all i am is yours,
my whole life i place in your hands,
god of mercy,
humbled i bow down,
in your presence,
at your throne,
i called you answered,
and you came to my rescue,
and i want to be where you are,
in my life,
be lifted high,
in our world,
be lifted high,
in our love,
be lifted high....

->he answer everytime we call for him....amen!

continue.....

well, im back...so bout today situation...are the guest check out early or demand for the late check out? the occupancy last nite is full..rooms that suppose to check out around 147 rooms...while for the check in is around 37 rooms..the occupancy for today started to drop..hm..okay, back to guest check out...me and iskandar waited for the guest that want to have a late c/out..but until 11am, this one lady come to the reception and asking for the late c/out..she inform us that yesterday they come early and have to wait for the room to be ready for about 3 hours...hello!! who asked them to come early??!!! stupid!!! and the beauty part is, i was the one who checking in them yesterday..surprisly she inform that both of the room not ready when they check in...hello!!! as far as i remamber 1 room is ready and the other room is ready not come to 10mins... so there's no way for them to waited for the room to be ready for 3 hours!!!! LIAR!!!!! LIAR!!!!LIAR!!!! this lady talk bullshit!!!! how i wish that i can smack her mouth and punch her on the face...geram!!! so iskandar give them late c/out until 3pm...shit!!!

bout other guest...well, all of them c/out on time...good...like it so much...so until 3pm everything is under control...best part is, both of us can go back at 3.3opm...imagine that, guest c/out 147 rooms..and both of us manage to do our closing on time....it's a miracle for us today...hehehe...

well, that's all for now..have to go to sleep..tomorrow still working at 7am..surely tomorrow i feel sleepy coz tomorrow the occupancy is very low due to fasting month..for the whole month la...ishk!!! i don't like when the occupancy is low..i really concern bout the service points...surely next month service points is low...hua!!!! huhuhu!!!!

at last......

at last the holiday is over...why 31st august has to fall on sunday? it's a long weekend for the gov't sector n some company...this people start to come in on friday 29th..okay, that day is not really busy for the resort because the school holiday is over on the 24th august.so guest in house not too many n the guest that checking out on that day also not that many...roughly around 12 rooms(heaven for the casher that day)hehehe...

okay, straight to the point....regarding bout the guest.. they started to checking in on saturday 30rd...that day was okay because most of the rooms are vacant and already clean..okay for us that day..we check in the guest and the guest can straight away enter the room...yea!!!the guest happy and so are we...the guest that check in on saturday is around 124 rooms...well, i think some of you can imagine how was the lobby look like when there are too many people....crowd n noise...man!!!

now, today 31st.... the worst!! today the guest that check in is up to 145 rooms!!! wow!!! last night is fully booked!! and today occupancy is expacted around 75%..and the rooms situation is back to back..surely the guest will get angry when they have to wait for too long for the rooms to be ready..so all of us at the front desk(receptionist) have to get our self ready by set up our ARMOUR....in case is there any guest that come to the reception and nagging about their rooms..even we already explain to them the situation but still they don't understand...haiya!! apa la punya orang?!! why they can't understand? weird? why can't they see how was the resort look like today? really HECTIC...pack!! adult acting like kids..like didn't have any brain to think..no patience at all...like to force our side, the receptionist..huhuhu...we are human too..we cannot PERFORM MAGIC..all we can do is to call the housekeeping and ask for the room situation in front of the guest..if they didn't satisfice with the answer, we have to surrender the room key to them...well, we inform them that THE ROOM IS NOT READY YET N THE ROOM WILL BE CLEAN AFTER THE HOUSEKEEPING FINISH CLEANING OTHER ROOM...see...they still don't understand even we told them that the room is not ready...haiya!!

the situation begin to slow down around 5pm...thank god..everything is cool down now..the guest is already in their rooms..happy i think...of course la moi...adoh! it's getting late now..i have to go..my shift is at 7am tomorrow..adoi!!tomorrow we will be busy with the check out...so i have to get my ARMOUR ready..hehehe..i'll let you guys know what happen during check out..are this guest going check out on time or CHECK OUT LATE?? stay tune..

.......

she's been hurt and now she won't love....


tears may be dried up, but the heart - never...

the love we gives away is the only love we keep.....

..............

dont believe MAKEUP n the right hairstyle alone can make a woman beautiful.the MOST RADIANT woman in the room is the one FULL of LIFE and EXPERIENCE

............

a person's looks are never going to make you love them or like them.....

ILLUSION

i thought i saw you look at me,
i thought i saw you stare,
do you know i think you're cute?
i like the look you bare.
are my eyes deceiving me,
when i see you STANDING THERE,
are you playing tricks on me,
just to prove i care?

are you an illusion?
is it only in my mind?
do you look at me,
as i do you,
to see if you can find
a little bit of interest,
a STOLEN GLANCE your way?
will you come and talk to me,
or WATCH ME DAY TO DAY?

you may have taken notice,
that i'm not very shy.
i like to tell my girlfriends
when i like a certain guy.
i do not mean to scare you,
but i've THOUGHT of you A LOT.
and now i simply want to know...............

(julian arizona)

-> have you ever been in this situation? well, gimme your opinion guys?
get this poem from chicken soup :teenage soul series

My new baby....

Again, iam alone in my room..surf the internet..well, i have to admit that sometimes i feel boring to surf the internet or be online..hehehe...yaa..don't know where to go and what to see. the webside that i always surf to become boring,plus my laptop makes me SICK..'very the slow'. feel want to throw it down from 3rd floor...but when i think back, 'adoi...jgn la moi!! patient2! sayang ya ba...' huhuhu!!!
i should have listen to olivia..upgrade my baby to another 1 gig..so it become 2 gig...yeah!!
i believe she's enjoy with her laptop right now coz she already upgrd it to another 1 gig..can't remember how many gig she have before she upgrd it into 2 gig..hehehehe..
so, by the end of this month, i have to SACRIFICE AGAIN.....(my pocket money la..)hoho..

My New Blog! Wow...

Oh Wow!! Finally... I can post something in this newly signed up blog. Phew!! Man, that was a hard work. I've been trying for the past few days to post something up. Just don't what's the problem, my page always lag. But today, as I thought of giving up, I manage to open this posting page. Hehe... I know Mr Blog won't disappoint me. So, am new to this blog. Hope to see more friends in this space and I will surely post my writings in here for sharing. See ya around...